Wake up. Gym. Work. Sleep. Repeat.
Mix in dinner with friends, strolls at the farmer’s market on Sunday mornings, occasional concert in the city…I wouldn’t say my life is mundane, actually, far from it. Yet, I’d wake up every morning feeling like I was missing something. I know you know what I mean.
We spend so much time going through the motions: deadlines at work (how have I not been fired?), forget to grocery shop (eat nothing but tortilla chips for two weeks), dentist appointment next Tuesday (can I reschedule? I haven’t been flossing), and buried in endless loads of laundry (when will I make enough money to afford dry cleaning?). At this point you’re thinking one of two things 1) this chick can’t take care of herself or 2) sounds familiar. Point being, we’re caught up, we’re blinded, we’re stressed out, we’re bored.
I’ve spent too much time living life. I am so over just living life. From this moment forward, I’m dedicating myself to not live a life anymore; no, I want to embrace life.
What I mean by that is living a mindful life. Learning to enjoy mundane chores or choosing to engage in more activities that bring me joy. I’m not chasing money or status. I’m in search of a life of meaning, for purpose, for happiness.
Change doesn’t happen overnight. I’m not expecting to feel completely fulfilled tomorrow. Time is our friend, our enemy, our every-present, ever-relative guide on this tiny planet. My hope is that, over time, I gradually discover and rediscover what it means to be alive.
We will spend our entire lives striving to be the best versions of ourselves (or, in some cases, give in to our own self destruction). We all seek the pieces that fill our souls, leaving us a little less empty. As a human race, I’m convinced we are on this endeavor together. I am a work in progress. You are a work in progress. We are all works in progress, stringing together whatever makes us feel more complete.
People know me as jFaull, this is my quest.
Welcome to jFaull in Progress.